Something real funny to share with you people. It made me roll my eyes, laughed for abit, before really calming down and feel the anger inside, waiting to go crazy.

So my mum came into my room and start ranting like a crazy bitch (trust me, I didn't do anything to deserve a round of scolding. She just does that everyday.) So a few notable points that she brought out. I'll leave it to you guys to see WHETHER, it is REASONABLE or not. I don't care if it make sense.

(1)就算麦当劳每个小时 $2 你做五个小时也有 $10. 好过你在那里坐着 1 毛钱都没有.
(2)我每天跟你做-奴隶-,叫你丢一个垃圾,你就算是帮很大的忙了是吗?
(3)如果你不把你的头发剪掉，你就不要跟我拿钱。
(4)我每次叫你做东西,你就一直推给哥哥做. (Then continue to comment how saintly my brother is, how much he help to pay this and that)

And she said a bunch of gibberish stuffs that don't make sense. Anyway. I'm totally ignoring her.

First thing first, point (1). She keep saying she don't have money? Then how come every day so fucking late come home? Then how come got money keep buying beer to drink? Why she so free one? GO WORK MACDONALDS LA. DON'T BUY BEER LA, ALOT RICHER LIAO WHAT.

Point (2). So I heard that I'm the only son in this family. Because you love to throw every single thang to me. ^^ No meh? I never seen my brother did a single chore at all. Even during Chinese New Year. She forced me to use alot of strength to clean the floor (magiclean, go figure) and mop the floor, the whole fucking process took 2-3 hours. Then their jobs? Oh, sewing. So they even have alot of time to sms here, sms there... While I'm perspiring and doing nothing but what I was told to do. ^^ _|_

Point (3). Go ahead, cut my allowance. I won't eat a single thing, plus. I'm very well-prepared to sue her. :D The government didnt make my divorced (useless) father give her $500 alimony so that she can pay her car or whatever. Its to be given to ME. But I'm getting less than $300. ;)

Point (4). I'm glad that she realise this part. But she didn't get the fucking main point. She didnt get that she always make me do whatever. And my brother. Oh wow. Hes 21 this year, he works less than 100 hrs a month and he gets good money. Then he contribute to her. So its a big deal. Sorry, but he didnt contribute to alleviate my stress or suffering. On the contrary, he said he PAID for my bills. Oh wow. $70 out of $160 is paying my bills? When you're suppose to pay everything as we agreed? That really made sense, didn't it?

Oh, so me, not even fully qualified, not even a legal adult, is suppose to earn money, contribute to this household. -Rolleyes- Wow. I didn't know that giving birth to children, you only need to give them minimal necessities all the way to 12 years old and they have to fend for themselves.

Why did I say minimal necessities? Apart from food, lodging, clothing, I don't get anything else.

And if any wise-guy wants to compare me to the african kids or any worse-case scenario examples. Don't even try -rolleyes-. Majority of Singaporean TEENAGERS don't get it this bad. I can't even pursue what I want.

Oh, and every talents (that I think I have), she sneers upon it.

Awesome ;3. She likes to compare this and that, but she don't allow me to say how SUCKY a mother she is. She keep saying '你太好命了'

ORLY? If I'm having such a good life, why am I feeling so fucking suffocated?



Thats all for today.






someone,save me from this please.
contemplating a quiet exit
an exit to this game called 'life'
a flick of the dagger, a drop of red
dripdripdripdripdripdripdripdripdrip
the quick dripping, the life withering
as i watch the devil claim me

Yeah. As the title says, 'oh wow.'

I can't believe that this blog, from a susposedly platform to reaching out to people who rarely come into contact with me, turned into a ranting platform.

Guess that no matter how much I claim how typical some Singaporeans can be, I turned out to be one myself; all complaints and no action.

I believe an apology is in order:

Sorry people.
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Haha, so I finally settled all the bills and money I owe to some people. ($260 went flying~)

I'm pretty far from the piano I reckon... $340 away man.

Anyways. Heres some of a few links you all should go to, they are one of the few piano pieces I'm addicted to.

Melodies of Life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fgbpuz7D4pM&feature=related

and

To Zanarkand
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LGqTA2Uae3s

Enjoy it.

Wayne~

Okay. I'm seriously here to rant. And most of the things I'm gonna post in today's update, is most likely going to be negative. If anyone is uncomfortable about rants regarding parents and family, I disclaim right now.

Leave.

Because I'm not going to tone down my rant just so you all can feel that this is a perfect world where your family consist of adult siblings and parents who give you everything you want.

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Disclaimer:
Anyone who feels that I'm being childish and don't know what the society is like, can get their asses off this blog. Because I think I can comprehend what life is about, and probably even better than you do.

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So I got taken for granted once again. I wonder when is this going to stop. My mum and brother, acting like "Oh, this is your job" and so on and so forth.

Let me begin from somewhere, shall I?

Aside from being stressed out with the polytechnic enrolment things. (Yes, unlike alot of people out there, I have ALOT to stress about. The semester fees, the laptop, this, that, EVERYTHING) which I've YET to settle. (because of the procrastination ability that runs strongly in my brother and mother, so they couldn't go to the freaking bank with me to do the guarantor shit.)

I still have to deal with their lousy memory, their effed up ability to twist whatever they say into nothing. Oh, did I say I'm being forced to do chores? In fact, lousy chores in which, I did not participate in creating the mess they made?

E.g.

(1) Dishes. Which includes cups/plates/bowls.
I DO NOT contribute in this mess. Right now, I'm using the same cup for days. And I keep washing it whenever I want to use it. And I don't use any bowls/utensils/plates at all. I eat-out, remember? If I bought take-aways, I'd tie them up NEATLY.

(2) Throwing the garbage.
Sorry. But again, I don't generate these garbages. A huge black trash bag a day? Give me a break. I rarely EAT these days. A meal TOPS, if I'm getting take aways. How do I genenrate SO MUCH trash? Do your math.

(3) Scenario 3.
[Handphone rings]
Wayne: -picks up-
???: Come down take things now.

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WTF? WHAT, THE, FUCK?

What am I? Your fucken butler cum coolie? Oh, they like to say that I contribute to alot of dirty shit at home.

So heres a question I'd ask.

"Remember the one week HK trip you and bro made last year? How come, you all leave the place in such a fucked up mess, and come back with it... SO MANY TIMES CLEANER THAN IT WAS?"

Ohh..

So i herd you have to do all the shit, because you are not contributing financially to the family.

-Clears throat-

Ahem.

These days. Alot of youngsters, most of them work as a part-time.

Where do their money go? Their wants. I have no problem with that.

Fine.

So heres the thing.

I'm 17 years old, 18 this year, but apparently I'm still far from the legal age. My official certs, 'PSLE', GCE 'N' Levels, GCE 'O' Levels.

This year is THE recession year.

So how many places you reckon, wants a 17 yo dude, who only has the highest qualification of 'O' Levels?

"Go work at MacDonalds".

Ohhh. So I herd you liek to make your son do cheap labour.

(Fucktards, if you are going to comment about things like 'beggars can't be choosers, fuck off')

I'm -NOT- going to work my ass off for a small amount of money so that I can PAY FOR YOUR SHIT FUCKTARDS. I RATHER, ROT, AT HOME.

Why? Because I know the next 3 years of my life is going to be something I won't like. Poly life sucks major time. If I want to get into a University. I'm going to compete with a cohord. And its NOT going to be easy when I'm competing with 285 students, who AT LEAST got 13 POINTS for L1R4. (I'm going to be the dumbest there)

So why should I, sacrifice my holidays, when I doubt that I'll have any, in anytime soon?

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Scenario ???

'Your brother worked when he was younger than you are &*$(#@8(#@)#@'

I'ma cut that crap short if I were you. He had financial back up. In another words, there is this generous man who is giving him easy money to earn. So shut your trap about it.

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Scenario ???

Your brother is paying for electric/water bills (PUB Bills in another words), he has to work, he has to pay for this installment, that installment.

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My answer:

Fuck off. -YOU- are suppose to pay for the PUB bills. So if HE ended up paying it for you, then its YOUR problem. YOU owe him a favour, NOT me. Don't start the fucking crap about, 'I am using the electricity and water too'.

Because I'll just respond accordingly.

"So, do you want me to pay for your living expenses when you're old? Or I can wash my hands off you and save that money?"

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Yes, idiots. If you guys are going to rant about how UNFILLIAL I am, go ahead.

I don't give a fuck.

For me, I don't give a damn about hell or heaven. Because I don't do things that are unfair to me.

So, I have to put up with a fucked-up life, I have to tolerate a fucked-up mother, whom, the moment drinks ANY alcohol, start VENTING their FUCKEN rage on me, and someone who only gives me $300 a month. (Oohhhh, $300 is alot. Yeah. $300 for 30 days, Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, Trasnportation, Handphone bill. SUREEE. Its alot -rolleyes-)

I have to tolerate a fucked-up, egoistic brother, who SUCKS at money management, and go flaunting in front of me saying "我有的是钱"

I don't give a fuck on how rich he is. Hes not having a stable income, and hes not helping me to deal with my financial difficulties. He can earn $100k/mth or $100/mth. It doesn't concern me.

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So I ranted so much... I lost track on what else I wanted to type.

A few more prioritised checklist to do.

1) Get the fucked up Tuition Fee Loan done.
2) Photocopy legal documents ('O' Levels result + Identification Card)
3) Pay $180 HP Bills.

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Oh, and very simple.

I forgot to mention this again.

My brother, on Chinese New Year. Told me that he'll pay $80 for that month (my hp bill). And the rest I pay myself (Because its $110).

I said 'Fine'.

This month's bill. I remember VIVIDLY, that he said if I help him do his flyers, he'll help me PAY my HP Bills. ( He DID NOT say how much. So I get the idea that hes paying for everything. Since he offered to pay the mobile subscription fee every month since November.)

So, end up. He tell me he "don't have the money" and scolded me. Then he give me $70 and said "thats all I'm giving you"

People... Do the math. $80 + EVEN IF HE JUST PAY for the subscription fee, its $115. NOT $70 FUCKING DOLLARS.

Don't go like 'its your fault for spending so much on the phone'.

Because theres a simple explaination.

I'm not using student plan. And the person who helped me subscribed it. -Rolleyes- Its the guy with fucked up memory.

I'm tired of ranting already. Ja

Or most probably, just something to get off my chest. Its probably a rant or something. But I'm seriously annoyed by my brother.

He goes around announcing, and claims that he is only 'paying for the mobile subscription plan' and not for the entire bill.

What kinda bullshit is that?

He told me, before Chinese New Year, that he'll pay $80.

Then after that, when he asked me to paste his dumb flyers, he say he'll pay for my bills.

Oh. So now everything changes when I'm done with his job?

Fuck off and die.


Rant over.

Case closed. Period

I'm never gonna trust him and his shit

Yes. I'm blogging at unearthly hour again. -Chuckles-

Its 4.06 am. Undoubtedbly, this is becoming my habit;sleeping at unearthly hour. Recently, I've been sleeping at... I don't know... 6 am? 7am?

...-Sighs- I don't know. Life... really seems to flick past through me. Oh, I know how insignificant I am in this world. But I can't believe this. I've been living like... well... an otaku?

Its pretty much like someone with no life. I've got slightly long, frizzy hair. I refuse to trim it until my tertiary education starts, I refuse to do this, I refuse to do that.

In fact, I'm probably living in denial ever since Sec 4 ended.

Secondary 5 probably just flit past as quickly as it began. 'O' levels was merely a passing dream now, probably a long nightmare albeit weird with the good ending though.

I seem... Edgy these days. I cant find the tranquility I wanted. I couldn't get the digital piano as I wanted. (Playing music is the best way to find peace in yourself, besides meditation). My brother went back on his words in paying for at least $80 the previous month and this month's mobile service subscription weighed heavily and caused my plan to get the digital piano to be postponed even further.

My mum's stunt in the lost of money.

The need to photocopy legal documents, the need to go for check-up and apply loan at DBS Bank.

So many things to do... So many things thats not within my power.

Is it that hard for me to be able to live like a teen who knows nothing about society? I'd rather be gullible and naive about the adult world now than facing it straight, now.

And it certainly doesn't help that Polytechnic will be another hella phrase of education. Even more... I don't know, challenges perharps?

Cosplay plans could be on hold. I'm definitely getting my digital piano. Its my last santuary for sanity.



Exhaustion...


Exhaustion comes pretty easily actually. But I can't find it in me to fall asleep as I like. I'd get thise, suddenly boost of energy from nowhere (Though I know that I'm god darned tired).

Okay, I'm just rambling. Maybe I AM tired. Probably about time to head for bed.

Life's like a.. boat.

Its just that this very boat could be anywhere. The mysterious, unpredictable ocean, the rushing river, the serene pond.

-Shrugs-

Think it through. Life may not be as bad as you think, young padawans. lol

I'm definitely enjoying my life at some point.

And so will you.

Rock on~

Its been forever since I updated my blog... But a few checklists to get over and done with over this span of year.

1) Digital Piano. $250 to go!
2) Laptop for Tertiary Education
3) KHR TYL! Hibari Cosplay
4) Final Fantasy V.13 Cosplay
5) Scar Treatment.

Ouch.

Big spendage, I fear.

D;

Off, I, Go.

8D

So I finally wore my favourite combination of clothes. But then, I didn't look photogenic today.

Anyway, just ordered 2 macdonalds meal. Waiting for em to come while I blog and upload my photos.

Woke up at 3 today. Did alot of misc. stuffs and go over to a temple and pray. Then went to my mum's side grandmother place.

Wow. Just wow.

Nobody recognize me.

D8

LOL

Oh well. I'm too lazy. But my 5th aunt and 4th aunt seems appreciative of my hairstyle. 8D

Well, not gonna blog much today. Let the camwhore begin.

Yes people. Wayne's blogging even on Chinese New Year.

First day, I slept at 5 am. Because the children, or whatever you call them. Is suppose to ‘守睡'. Then I woke up at like 12.

Chiong ah. Went to shower, style hair, wear new clothes. Take a few picture (turns out only one looked better)

Went to Sima Road. Then went to the temple. Etc, you know the drill.

Went to eat Vegetarian food. Didn't have much appetite.

Went back home.

Changed into the comfy casual clothes. Then slacked around till allmost 7pm. Then went to take a brief shower, then styled my hair from scratch. Looked WAAYYY better.

Stayed out till 2 am'ish. Lost $50 because of gambling. I got a lucky seven for blackjack (3 Sevens). But they only paid me like what, 3 times.

(I heard they are suppose to pay 7, or even 21 times. Sucks)



Wut? I'm innocent -looks up-



When I reached home, yes. Somehow, it looked better than when I went out.



Don't stare at this picture too long. I look ethereal.



After a shower, re-styled hair from scratch. Hmmm -calculates-



-Slightly- Different angle. 8D



My hair colour looks so awesome in this picture. OMG? IS THIS WAYNE?



Sitting on the bed, looking BORED



I look even more bored in this one.



Final picture for day 1. Happy Lunar New Year everyone!

Peace out~

Wayne~

The title explains everything. Kinda like, real beat from the 30 minute jogging..

So, update small pictures. =D

2 nia. Because i suddenly feel like taking pictures, cant?!

Alright, crap aside.

OH MY GOD, WAYNE IS JOGGING?!


Ja, people

I wanted to blog yesterday, I've a mind full of things to update about.

Then when I slept and wake up. I completely forgotten.

Awesome eh?

Anyway, heres my results.

GCE 'O' Levels Results
Chinese - A1
English - A2
E.Maths - B3
C.Science - B3
C.Humans - B4
A.Maths - F9

I practically lol'd at the AMaths. =D

L1R4 Raw Score: 13 Points
L1R5 : 22 ( No JC, aww)

So its practically the best case scenario that I thought about. XD

And heres the 'N' level score I had. LOL
English - 2
Chinese - 3
E.Maths - 2
C.Sci - 4
C.Humans- 4
A.Maths - F9

LOL'D again.

Well, I did score better than my 'N' levels. So hooyah.


Take care peeps.

Wayne~